yay, i'm a poster. for those of you who don't know me: i am a 16-year-old san diegan computer nerd who plays guitar and listens to rock(ie tool, a perfect circle, all emo, some punk) and electronica(trance, house, dnb, etc, ie paul oakenfold, john digweed, sasha, pvd). i write rock music with my guitar and use fruity loops to make elctronica which you can hear by emailing me. i program in c++, php, a little bit of asp(ack, microsoft). i run windows 2000 because xfree86's current version won't support my radeon 32 ddr. as soon as i get my hands on the new freebsd i'll say goodbye to windows for good. i also do web design as you might be able to see by going to nydel.net. i go to raves also because i like to dance house stepping and liquid popping. i like girls alot especially pretty ones with good personalities but i can't find any around here. i skateboard too alot on the street and lately in parks. i surf a whole lot but my best surf trick is standing up. i like wasting my time being obsessed with fantasy stuff so i read fantasy books and play fantasy rpgs. i also do alot of other stuff but i'm leaving so you don't get to know what all that other stuff is.

okay,
nydel

I"m in a good mood. I saw the decline. Damn, that was rad. For those of you who read my site and don't know what that is let me explain. My friends Elliot (Bass), Dub (drums), Matt (guitar), Colin (guitar), Jason (trombone) covered nofx the decline. And they did it perfectly. It was sooo good. I humped dubs leg several times. It was nice. My file on Metal Gear Solid is coming along quite nicely. hehehe. Tomorrow 15 (dominique) is coming down and were going to go wash windows and beg for money so I can get to apply for school. Whee! I hope everything works out. Anyways. I'm off now. See ya.

i'm in a fucking bad mood. i should be going to bed because i have to get up early tomorrow. but whatever. i'm just all pissy. i'm losing contact with poeple. it's startin to bug me a little bit. it shouldn't, i go in cycles with these folks anyway. remember kids, you can't count on anyone but yourself. and that there is the reason why you have to be true to yourself and love yourself and all the hippy-assed bullshit. blah blah blah. ~smack

yes ma'am. will call you upon arrival tomorrow morning. lata kids

so i finally convinced my mom to let me get my nose pierced. WOO HOO!!!!!!! FANTASMAGORIC. on other bright news i got a raise yesterday! yeah for that too. i cant go to the concert tonite(if its still on cuz of the rain) cuz i have to work lame. anyways yeah Dominique make sure you call me tomorrow. cuz if you dont wanna hang till aroudn 6 im definetly tye dying my hair with kim and making some plans to make up for the ones i had to break, but whatever. yep thats right tye dye. woo fucking hoo! well i have to go back to fucking work. lata.

yeah i'll call you tonight. i gotta figure out what we're going to use to wash windows and what not. i'll call trevor and ask him what him and mike used. lata

Yay, so 15. We gonna go mow lawns and wash windows and shit? I got a great idea, we can make a cardboard sign that says need college money, please donate. Then we will go stand in a parking lot by a grocery store. It will be rad. no? anyways. Call me. If I'm not at home, i'll be at matts house. my number is 227-6340, matts number is 449-3342, just let me know whats going on. Aite? Coolio.

In other news. I stayed at matts house last night and was playing metal gear solid. thats a rad game. minus the fact its a piece of shit! Its too damn hard. And i'm not even that far into it. ugh... Fuck shit. I'm out.

i'll be in helena saturday morning. anyone want their windows washed? hehe.

Well, I totally sat down for 2 1/2 hours today and made a compilation, went to listen to it to review it, and nothing recorded. oucha! So here I am at matts house, tummy full of delicious vegetable fried rice from this cheesy chinese restraunt by k-mart. Mmm...soo good. Anyways, I'm heading upstairs to matts room to work on this compilation thing again, only this time I will use a stereo that actually works. Laters yo's.

my blog is pissing me off. it's doing stupid error crap now. argh.
so hopefully i'll make it to helena this weekend. need some damn money. tattoos aren't free you know! god i just found that out. here i've thinking they were free. shit.

If I was a god of anything, I would be the god of procrastination. I just got out my applications for M.S.U. It didn't help that some of them just got here while I was away at warped tour. Anyways, I'm filling this shit out, and I realize there is a $200.00 applicatin fee for the dorms? Oucha! Then another $30 bucks for application for admission. Hurt! Thats going to leave a mark. I have to figure out where I'm going to get $200. Definatly not from my job, since I only work 1 day a week. Anyone know where I can get hired even though I have a lip ring? Please please help me out. hehehe. Or if anyone knows where I can get a $200 loan. Well, have fun yo's. I'm off to see the wizard. The wonderful wizard of brokeness.

I added a section which will be just my personal feelings and thoughts. its called fids feelings. you can check it out if you would like.

boredom.... blahditty blah blah. i want to get out of the house and i don't care how. my dad is sitting here reading my yearbook from seventh grade out loud. jesus christ i don't want to hear this bullshity people wrote me. what a bunch of bunk. i hate yearbooks.
i'm going to go sit in a field alone. and read or something.

****ATTENTION from the bitching dept.****
so im sitting at work wishing my jaw would just go away. it hurts sooo fucking much. my lovely wisdom teeth are growing in and getting impacted at teh same time. gah damn they hurt. so next time yyou see me attempt to break my jaw. anyone please~!!! i cant deal with this anymore...ugh!!!!!!! This post was deleted by mr_fidelity for the reason of sucking. Please do not abuse your ability to post on this site. 2-3 posts a day about stuff that doesn't really matter is just a waste of time for people to read, and what not. Kassie, I gave you the ability to post on here so you could reply to things I have to say, and or have something of value to say. Don't abuse it. I will take you back off if you're posting shit that doesn't really matter. thats not what this is for.
****END bitching****

I was feeling kinda sick about applying for MSU and not getting accepted, but last night I talked to Brendan for awhile when he gave me a ride home. And I felt a lot better. He told me that he too only had a GED and the act's are easy. So I feel better. I just hope its not too late to apply, because I just got the application in the mail. Oh I hope not. Anyways. I think I'm going to go finish that application and send it out. Then matticans and margaret should be here and I will be off to the library. Also, I finally like had the chance to talk to Cressie Ivers, and April last night. They are pretty cool. I hung out with them at the library last night. We went to the airport to greet their friend Whitney that was coming back from Alaska, but apparently her plane was having mechanical problems in Seattle so it hadn't arrived. We went back to the library and hung out for a little longer. We had a great conversation the whole time. Hopefully we can finish up where we left off last night. Also, whitey if you're reading this, which you never do. Why don't you give me a call. In fact anyone in the Helena area thats reading this. Call me. 227-6340 I'm bored. Call me. please. See ya.

just an early morning post to tell you all that im super busy and bitchy these next two weeks so if i snap at you im very sorry. i dont feel well and i have lots too do. anywho just wanted to apologize before shit happened.

****ATTENTION**** from the bitch dept
Please use paragraphs and what not when typing in here. It makes it easier to read. I will try and do the same. Also, I know you people have a lot to say and what not. And thats cool. But try to keep the posts too a minimum, no one wants to sit here and read for an hour. Just kinda check in and see whats going on you know? Thanks. I'm working on a new section for long posts, it will be here shortly, in the mean time lets keep them shorter. I understand warped tour happened so everyone had stories. So I'll let it slide this time.
****END BITCHING****

So Ashley Binion is back. Yay! I have missed her. She has been in N.Y. for a month. But she is back, and we are going to hang out later. I'm home right now to take a shower, change clothes. And blahbidy blah blah. Then were off to a b-day party. Also, did the bozeman people know that I was on the front page of the paper? Ya thats right. I'm on the front page of the bozeman paper playing guitar. You can totally check that out if you would like. It was the one printed on the 7th. also if anyone could possible send that part of it to me. I would love you forever. Just e-mail me if you can cut it out for me. Thanks. but for now i'm off to take a shower and stuff.

See ya.

haha. i rock her world. go me.
i'm reading the coolest book. it's all about capitalism and how shitty it is. it's a compilation thing. the editor writes first, and i really liked his writing style a lot. he called pavarotti and "overweight singing peacock." i enjoyed it. anyways, it's called 'why work? arguments for the leisure society'. he talks about how a tiny tiny tiny percentage of people work in agriculture and produce like sixty percent of the food we consume. so why do the rest of us still work in meaningless useless jobs?
time to shower.

yeah this is the story of my weekend, it may be sorta long. so on friday, i woke up way too early and got in a car with teri and aubrey and jenna and rode to bozeman. it was fun. kamikaze bird strikes again. then we stopped at teris grandmas and i had to put in my god damn contacts. god they suck. im a big glasses fan. so yeah then we went to nickys house and i had an interesting conversation with her dad. he really is a pretty cool guy. then we got in a car with teri and jenna and aubrey and nicky decided it was cool to make fun of me that bitch(just kidding) then it was time for WARP TOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woooooo hooooo. nicky and i met up with some friends and we got in towards the front of the line so it was super cool!!!!!!!!! i was all super excited. big time thrill. then we went in to warp tour! woo hoo! i proceed to bounce around and cause hell. bouncing souls were pretty cool, cept for the mosh pit sucked cuz there was lots of dead air. nicky went down and it really scared me. but yeah then some nice guy picked her up so i didnt have to worry too much. super bonus about the bouncing souls pit was some guy groped me. then it was off to visit trevor and buy some stuff. my very first purchase of the day? a less than than jake deck. BA DA BING!!! woo hoo! whats up? it was the coolest thing ever. then i bought a whole bunch of other cool stuff, like a less than jake tshirt. i had sooo much fun. guttermouth kinda wasnt very rad cuz they sucked when it was time for there show. they spit beer at people. but then they played lipstick so i was happy. then it was time for the vandals! woo hoo! warren was hot and sexy and showed off his ass. it was cool. i drooled alot. then came LESS THAN JAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOO FUCKING HOO!!!!!!!!! i love less than jake soo much. the only bad side aobut the less than jake show is i got hurt major in the pit. some guy jumped on top of me. and my head hit the ground. ack! it hurt, my neck still hurts like a fucking bitch, i think i seriously fucked it up. ahh it still hurts. then we got to play the ride home game. it was cool. aubrey was eating creme cheese, and i was confused. by the time nicky and i got home my mom had ordered pizza for us. uumm uumm good! so nicky and i ate that and watched slc punk. we slept passed seeing sonya on saturday which sorta really sucked. big time big time. oh well, we still had fun though. nicky and i had a really good time on saturday i think. we ran away from my mom and hung out downtown. it was a fun time. saturday night was kinda scary though. ithought my loveable lindsey was gonna die. im glad we left when we did. agh!!! i was soo scared for you lindsey. nicky and travis and i got a lotta cool convo going on and it was fun. super fun. when nicky and i got home last night we watched american history x. it was really thought provaking. and nicky and i had a very cool convo about just stuff. i dunno. some of the best conversations i have are late at night.
anyways its late and i have to work a twelve hour day or more tomorrow. so i should go to bed.
to lindsey: im glad were getting along again lets keep it this way, i love you much
to nicky: nicky you rock my world. i love ya much chica.
good night to all

i have just returned from my trip to el helena. jesus it was interesting. whenever you are gonna meet someone's family, you think that it'll all be fine and fuckin dandy and that all the shit they say about their family is exageration and what not. but jesus christ. i spent a total of maybe five hours awake at kassie's house over the weekend and her mother drove me up the wall. i think she sets an alarm so she can make sure she never goes more than five minutes without bitching and whining. even her husband. she treats him like he's ten. it's ridiculous. then there was the rest of helena. mostly it was cool. but some of the people.... mostly the girls. the guys were fine. but the girls are such... girls! they were whores! bradi was cool. emily was cool. the one girl (megan??) with the purple and blue hair and wore a lot of pink was pretty cool. but damn it. some of 'em just sucked. i wanted to just smack a lot of people. ah yes, and then there was the cops at the library and the jerk in the fubu shirts. lindsey, i thought he was gonna just kick your ass when he came up and asked you what you told the cops. leaving was a good plan. and so is steering clear for a while. you probably got him in some shit when you called officer whatshisface. and i'm sure he's really happy about it. ugh. damn helena kids.
warped tour was sweeeeeeet ass. i bit it in the bouncing souls pit because it was nothing but dead air. the less than jake pit was pretty cool. but kassie took a beating. but the vandals... they were mm mm good. so was me first. i was so damn tired by the time me first came around though. i was just standing there.
wide range of reaction to me this weekend. i got called foxy, which is fun. but then aubrey tells me that teri just hates me. but well, i don't care. at all. cuz i have a feeling that i don't like her any more than she likes me anyway. so whatever. it's not like i ever expect to see her again anyways. she was pissed off because i was in the shower when they got there. uhm yeah, we got to concert an hour early anyway. i saved her from more time standing around in the sun. whatever. she should be thanking me. and buying me presents.
i too am sunburned. oucha.